Why trust me? When I don't hear a word you say. Why love me? WHen I wonder how your blood would look like on the shiny tile floor. Why praise me? wHEN EVERDAY I think of more ways to braek you down. Why touch me? When the only touch i wish upon you is a bullet in the head. Why? Why think of me? Why think of me so pleasantly. As if i'm like the rest. Why include me in your life? When I dream of killing your loved ones, then mine. When I've itched in my own insanity that I just want to cut off ...

I see myself in the mirror The mirror looks back at me We both laugh Pleasantly I turn around Thought i heard a sound I must protect the mirror I hear it again It turns out The mirror Was laughing at me At My Vanity

Happiness fills my chest, Maybe being forgiven heals all, Or maybe just so I can temporarily feel tall! Like all my cruelty has actually vanished! As if the cold eyed monster inside of me is really gone! Don't make me laugh! You forget that at any moment I'll snap, Take out my knife and cut you in half! You see! Apologies don't heal they just numb the pain.

I made an insult now I don't know what happend. Where did my humanity go? If my younger self could see me now... All my hatred and cruelty, All my emptiness and loneliness, If my younger self could see me now...she would cry. Her happy imagination turned into schizophrenia, Her young smile torn into a frown, I feel so... If we both could meet eachother again...we both would cry. I would hold her in my arms and tell her it's okay, I would tell her I loved her and not to be sad, That things wou...

This darknees drapes over my head like a vail, Someone take it off! I want the light! Is it just ignorance why people are so dramatic? This is irony in itself! Someone take it off!

When I am hating you stay happy, When I am crying you live happily. It's not fair! I was born into a world that passes judgement on the innocent, You were born into a world that welcomed you with open arms! I hate you! I want to kill your loved ones before your eyes! Cut out their hearts and paste them into my chest, So I can love the way your love ones love you. Then I can have someone to love me back too.

I hate myself too much, I can't keep it together. No matter how much I blame someone else, I'm by myself...forever.

My tears of blood run down my cheeks, I close my eyes and let the others feast. Upon my soul where the demons sleep, And where my hatred begins to creep. I want to kill them all like sheep! If I did that the I'd be something society would never keep. It's just not fair why life is so cruel, Mybe it's not so bad, If I just use people like tools.

I look at myself and I see a monster, I look at them and I see nothing! I look at you...and I see life. With eyes filled with pain you look at me, My soul so bitter and selfish has nothing to gain. Open your and say something else, Turn away and go somewhere else. As you leave I remember one thing, I look at you...and I see life.