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i don't know what it's gonna be like when we "BREAK UP" because i don't know if we CAN "break up" seeing as we're not exactly "TOGETHER" & we're definitely not a "couple" but i get this scary feeling in my spleen that's like a premonition of woe (WHOA) & i know you said you'd never stop but everyone stops sometime no matter how damn charming you seem to think i am   it seems strange to me that YOU hacked your way into MY life, YOU clung to ...

she said, "i think you should get out of that. it never works if you're faking it. there's gotta be a mutual attraction." i thought, "actually, i've mulled this over at great length, & i've decided that as long as we're both happy & healthy, there's no problem with the arrangement." i said, "yeah, you're right."

you were always the forgetful companion when it came to anniversaries & such. i'd call you & you'd make me feel like i was interrupting some crucial heist. but i still called you & you still forgot to act like you remembered.

i remember your hands working dye into my hair, you standing over me & i felt at once dominated & protected (my favorite feeling to get from you), like you were a knight & a dragon, a policeman offering me refuge from you, the sex offender whose lips i want(ed).

you are, in many ways, that cooler, prettier, more experienced girl who i chased around perpetually until i taught myself to embody her as best i could so i wouldn't go insane.   but still, you make me long to be your right-hand man, your favorite advisor, your go-to girl.   when i'm close to you (physically) i want to be closer to you (emotionally) - i want you to miss me & to sing my praises & to agree with me but challenge me & like it.   i don't think i'd want t...