Dancing around and around this earth

I dare not blame you yet I find nothing within myself. I have to stop letting you cut into my body with jagged cuts. You tear apart my compassion with your drama so useless. I'm running yet you only grab me to help yourself. I'm running yet you still find ways to tear open my flesh. I'm fucking tired of this. I'm angry at myself for not caring anymore. When you call me I just agree because I'm too tired to give a shit anymore. I dare not blame you yet I find nothing. I dare not blame you yet ...

I dare not blame you yet I find nothing within myself I have to stop letting you cut into my body with jagged cuts You tear apart my compassion with your drama so useless I'm running yet you only grab me to help yourself I'm running yet you still find ways to tear open my flesh I'm fucking tired of this I'm fucking angry at myself for not caring anymore When you call me I just agree because I'm too tired to give a shit anymore I dare not blame you yet I find nothing I dare not blame you yet I...

I dare not blame you yet I find nothing within myself I have to stop letting you cut into my body with jagged cuts You tear apart my compassion with your drama so useless I'm running yet you only grab me to help yourself I'm running yet you still find ways to tear open my flesh I'm fucking tired of this I'm fucking angry at myself for not caring anymore When you call me I just agree because I'm too tired to give a shit anymore I dare not blame you yet I find nothing I dare not blame you yet I...

May 3, 2002~ I am a mover who stands on two feet. I feel quiet, so I just stand there and breathe. I feel expansion and release in my body. My feet do not feel grounded. They are just there underneath me. I feel like taking a walk. I test my right foot and can't feel my whole foot on the ground. I try my other foot and continue walking forward still testing the ground. I feel unsure of my surroundings, so I walk backwards. I stand on two feet again taking deep breaths. I notice my hands tense...

May 17, 2002~ I am a mover who sits in stillness with my hands wrapped around my knees. I begin to rock side to side slowly. Gradually my neck rolls side to side with the rocking. The rocking gets bigger and my head does full circles still slowly. I release my hands to the floor and take the rocking into them. I feel weight in my hands. I feel the rocking motion going into my torso so I let it. I shift my body to my knees and my body keeps rocking. Gradually the shifting happens again. Then ...