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lost in a heap fucked and just forgotten i don't think you really ever gave a shit clench my fist tighten the noose it's just an image i can't get out of my head i hate it i wish i could lose it pills would save me maybe you could to but it doesn't matter nothing will happen it never does the end is nothing but something i dream falling down hard never to be picked up again bleeding in trickles the lines are nothing but a cross -----------------------------------------------------------------...

so the ones you love or just the ones you see are there every day you walk around the earth buckles under the eyes of your mind the ground caves everytime you misstep somebody just fucking tell me what to do i look around and i see, not love, but experience and i look inside and i find not a single thing they say to keep your eyes and ears wide open well come on, i'm beyond open i'm an autopsy with a face turn off the lights i won't breathe anymore --------------------------------------------...

i tear the sky to shreds as the stars begin their assault i fend them off with my fists i lose myself on the way to eternity i find myself in the darkness once again "what happened?" is what i ask myself where did things get side-tracked and how did i find myself here instead of there i have lost my way and now i must struggle back to the source i must mend the skies and return the stars to their former glory i need to mend myself before i can go on before i can love when life is the way it i...

it would be so much easier if someone would kill me no guilt on my hands, no slow agonizing pain i'd have to deal with but damnit all if it's not illegal to have someone kill you! what kind of country is it where i don't have the freedom to be killed! oh this began as a sadistic rant, and i will turn it into something much more grand something out of this world, beyond the farthest reaches of space and time (and twinkly little stars) out on the great rift, where the clouds meet the sky hump a...

i really would like to go to new york city. being in the most recognized state in the u.s. surrounded by sky scrapers and snow (winter obviously) i love the image nyc presents. i think i am much more an east coast person. i never go to the beach. my favorite area in my city is downtown la, and thats the closest you can get to nyc here. i know some people probably might think i want to go to nyc just to see them. this is not the case. only problem is my career goal (game design) is centered he...