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been waiting to fall your arms fake safe and secure but you can not catch

Again it begins That tingle inside Pulling the strings Starting the ride Driving your pulse To an insane rate Racking your brain Screaming Sites blur to blackness Ears start to ring Lips crack with dryness Pushing so deep Scraping away hard Gasping to breathe Letting it go Screaming again and again and again it all begins again entwined melted Screaming

Tonite I saw all I want to see Terrible Ugly Scary things Went a bit too close to the edge this time But now I feel much better Words flew all about my head Though very few penetrated my skull Lights shown brighter than the sun My dry mouth couldn’t speak But now I feel much better One too many Right in a row Looking down at my dinner on the floor Snorting it down and holding it back Hurting So good and not wanting it to stop But now I feel much better

thoughts circle quickly through my head it’s hard to admit that dream has gone dead standing back from life for so long feeling happiness through a sad song restraining myself from living here knowing that really there is nothing to fear seeing your face in a world that’s not mine longing to cross the heart wrenching line denying the feelings that hungrily want you thinking it won’t happen, it can’t be true possibility is all that my heart will see wanting to be with you has set me free not s...

Grabbing the rope, pulling it tight. Looking for sanity, lost in endless night. Returning to places, locked up inside. Browsing memories, no chance to hide. Ghostly faces swim, writhe in my head. Pushing me back, disappearing in red. Watching it slip, loss of control. Pondering death again, anguish takes it’s toll. Where did it go, dropped out of sight. Vanished forever, searing black light.