Jim Strong just wanted to sleep.  All he ever wanted to do was to make the pain go away, the pain of a world which looked nothing like the one that he would have made had he had any power to do so at all. Here Jim was in a fucking jam again.  He had no money and a sometime job that was for people younger than he. Drink had helped him pass the time, but over time it had become the focus. That and pure exhaustion was burning him out.  He was in this alone and it was starting to b...

Here I am again. I know how it happened. I was there for the whole thing: Crown Heights, The Bronx and right back to the place I started: Greenpoint. It changed. It gentrified. I think I liked it better before. There are more beautiful women now though. I just heard these thugs speaking below my friends window. That's how it used to be all the time. It's safer now I guess. I think I liked it before when it was more dangerous, interesting and cheaper. Pretty women only go so far. . . . I would...

I made it and I don't want to talk about it anymore, except to say that I did not die yet again. That is good. It feels great. I may not have made it over all the hurdles, but I'm still in the race. Perhaps that's all one can hope for sometimes: making it through. I want more. . .hurdles that is. . .because they make me stronger. We've got problems and I want to be prepared to fix them.

So, I think my roommate might fit the profile of a serial killer, which is great news since I can't afford to move right away. I moved into the place about a year and a half ago. I was sharing a place with a friends brother and the lease was up, so I decided to move to a loft share where I would have more space and be able, perhaps to set-up a small editing studio in my space. My dog would have more room and there were two cats that could keep him company. I was really buzy with work so I wan...

There has been an on-going dialogue at my workplace about current events, mostly regarding the Iraq war, the environment and United States society in general. One earlier in the week began about music and transformed into a social critique, by me (no please, don't thank me yet, but I was the hero of the conversation). My co-worker asked me if I like the Irish pop group "The Cranberries" after I had referred to them as "The CRUD-berries". I said I did not, because I think their lead singer Del...

As I sit hear and type, I can hardly see straight from being tired from working and the weight of a world, that more and more not like anything I can relate to despite my being of it. Both of these things make my back ache. This is not the world my parents, or my teachers told me about. This is something that I could only create in my most cynical imagination and it's happening right now. What's worse is that I often feel that I'm the only one seeing it: The war bankrupting us and depriving t...

I had a very active dream state this morning and all my dreams had a similar theme: People were advising me to trust those in authority to take care of things and not to worry about them. This is very curious since I don't particularly trust the people who were suggesting that I trust these authority figures anymore than I trust the authority figures in question. One of the people in the dreams was my co-worker who until recently, I didn't even like and the other was my mother, whom I don't t...

I've been reading a lot recently about the U.S. trade deficit due to the fact that we often export our national productive capability to other countries to take advantage of the cheap labor. I was distressed about this until I realized that we in these United States still have the market cornered on one thing as native as Mom and apple pie-fat, lazy, television-watching morons! We could export them to other countries. What Japanese family could do without an native-born American moron occupyi...

"She wanted to fool around and I just wanted to dream."-Mark D. Goldfinger (personal conversation in Cambridge, MA circa 1998) "The Ice Age is comin', the sun's zoomin' in and London is drowning and I live by the river."-The Clash "London Calling" MILAN (Reuters) - Milan's fashion designers, having put up the for sale signs on winter collections, launched their ideas on Sunday for what men should be wearing next autumn -- and Dolce & Gabbana said it would be space-age glitter. ADVERTISEMENT-N...

They have video. I can’t wait to watch it on YouTube. What do they expect? Some guy is walking around in the hot sun dressed as Tigger, In a state of constant humiliation, surrounded by tons of annoying kids, And their parents. . . . “Hey Tigger! Let’s get a picture!” “Hey, fuck you!” “Make me a bike clown!” Maybe it’s Michael Richard’s (Kramer from “Seinfeld”) new job. “Tigger, Tigger. Look at me I’m a Tigger.” Hopefully the incident set-off a slave revolt at Disney World and Epcot Center is...