Perched upon my singled-out, iconic bar stool, Spot-lighted at a side-lined table With my cup of coffee and singed tongue, I listen to the roar of conversation that has Distracted my already scattered train of thought. So much is being spoken that none of it makes sense. But I feel that if all was isolated, Each of those conversing would continue in their lack of sense And meaning. I sit back and accept my loss at being lost in my own thoughts. Curious now, I counter their invasion into my t...

"I am undeserving. Unworthy. Despicable. And I am sick. I curse. Drink. Lust. And I lie. I am weak. Broken. Lost. And I have done nothing to change that. Despise me. Hate me. Forget me. Please."

Pining for peace With this horrible distance. To see your face; Future embrace do consume My thoughts And dreams. But I must wait, For I am not ready To give you anything. I have yet to perfect My love's outlook. For now, I see you And I thank God. But what I want And what I need Is to thank God Without seeing you at all.

“I don’t hate you. I wish I did though. It would be easy to hate you. So easy. What makes things hard is that I don’t. I hate what you did. I hate how you ruined everything. I hate all the promises you made, And how you went back on your word. Now I can’t trust you. I can’t believe anything that comes out of your mouth. It’s all lies to me. You’ve changed. You’re not the same person you were before. I can’t stand who you are now, At least, who you are towards me. I can still see that person i...

"I don't hate you. I wish I did though. It would be easy to hate you. So easy. What makes things hard is that I don't. I hate what you did. I hate how you ruined everything. I hate how it's so easy for you to hide what you feel. I hate how it's so easy for you to find comfort. I hate how you've found her, And I'm still trying to find me."

"So naive. So broken. Unaware of the things that could be. Constantly looking back to the past. Blind-sided by things that haunt her now, Because she always looks back. Overwhelmed by regret and guilt, No room for hopes and dreams. Looking back she sees herself as she is now, Unchanged... Still looking back. Look ahead to the future! But she continues as always. Her opportunities become chances that cannot be taken. She still looks back, Reminded of losses and failures that have repeated them...

"Save a broom, ride a wizard."

"Strip away my ego, vanity and even scold my unruly id. Tear and pick away my paper skin, carving holes into my uncovered bones. Dry me out of tears with broken promises and bruising lies. Leave my heart uncovered, uncared for until it rusts from the seasons. Vanish my family, murder my memories and dismiss my future. All these violent torments and many unimaginable more will only fuel the flight of this spirit you so wickedly seek to destroy. Beneath the shroud of my paper skin, rusted heart...

"I'm the fire that burns inside your hidden veins. I'm the poison that eats away at your entire being. I'm the virus that spreads and makes you weak. I'm the cancer that grows and takes you slowly. I'm your nightmare, making you sweat all night. I'm the secret you hide, because it's so outrageous. I'm the one you still want, but can't admit to. I'm the one you will no longer touch. I'm the one you will no longer taste. I'm the one you will no longer possess. I'm the one you will no longer mar...

"I thought you were past this I thought it was over But no, you've done it again. And same as before, I blame myself I've been told not to do that But those words were a waste of breath I know i've triggered this I don't think you realize All that you are doing With every drop of blood A tear drops down my cheek With every scar you create My stomach turns into knots, My hand shakes You're blind to the fact that i've noticed And you're ignorant of the fact that I care If I didn't, I wouldn't h...